Back to School

Aug 8
It’s that time of year.  School is about to begin.  For Colin, it begins Monday.  He’ll be in second grade.  My baby will start pre-K this year, too (but not until September).  I found this letter in one of my journals.  I wrote it the night before Colin started kindergarten.  I thought I’d share.

Colin on the first day of Kindergarten, August 2006 
(notice the bitty girl in the window)
Dear Colin,


It is the eve before you start kindergarten.  I just went into your room to lay out you some clean socks to go with your outfit.  I just washed them.  I’ve packed your book bag and told you everything in it.  I went out today and bought you a towel to have at rest time.  I washed it so it would smell like home.  I want your day to be perfect.  I’ve gotten ready for the 1st day of school as a teacher but not as a parent.  You will be riding the bus.  I can’t believe I’m letting you.  I’ll follow the bus to school in the van with Daddy to make sure you get to your class. 


I’m nervous.  I know you’ll love it, but I’ll miss you – so will Faith!  This day just proves how big you are getting – you can ride a bike without training wheels and are learning to play baseball.  I love to watch you learn new things, but I hate for you to get bigger!  I wish you could be my baby forever.  When I tell you that, you say you will.  Someday, I know that won’t be your response.


How can I tell you as you leave tomorrow, you are not only leaving our house to head to school but also leaving a little piece of childhood behind to head out into the world?  I wish I could say, “Stay with me just a little longer,” like you tell me sometimes.  But instead I’ll say, “Go and have fun.  It’ll be a great day,” and my heart breaks for the baby you once were and the incredible man I know you will become.


Grandmother King always says, “Stubborn or strong-willed children make great adults.”  You’ll be a really great adult!  I love you, Colin.  I love that you want to grow up and go to ninja school to learn all the ninja secrets.  I love that you sing, “There’s gonna be a hallway tonight” instead of heartache tonight.  I love that you call your cleats your “pleats.”  I love that you have to point your finger and tilt your head every time you wink.  I love that you wear cowboy boots with your shorts. 


And I love that you are big enough to go to kindergarten tomorrow, but, oh, how my heart will ache when you leave.  “Will you miss me, Mommy?” is what you asked as I read you a story at bedtime and tucked you in.  Yes, son.  I will miss you, more than you will ever know.




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  • Michelle Aug 8 at 5:09 am

    Awwww! I love his sister looking out the window. What a great idea to write your thoughts for him. My daughter starts pre-K in a few weeks. It is exciting and heart breaking.

  • HisPrincess Aug 8 at 6:50 am

    I love that comment “strong willed children make great adults”. I’m praying that’s true for my two future adults!

    Lovely letter, thanks for sharing.

  • BethAnne Aug 8 at 1:36 pm

    I am crying!!! My oldest starts second grade on the 15th and my youngest has only one more year at home before kindergarten. UGH!!! Breaks my heart!

  • Anonymous Aug 8 at 1:53 pm

    Precious! I know my time is coming! thanks for sharing.

  • Kimberly Aug 8 at 9:18 pm

    Hey now, you don’t have to go and get me all weepy already! I have a few more days until mine go to 2nd grade and K5 (Kate’s first time in school). Sniff sniff

    This is such a sweet and tender letter, Carol! What a treasure!

  • Cheri Aug 9 at 1:36 am

    Okay, seriously, did you have to make me cry?

  • ocean mommy Aug 9 at 2:25 am

    Faith sneaking a peek just cracked me up, and I’m a little teary from reading your sweet words to your man child.

    I’m jotting your Grandmother’s quote about strong willed children down. She sounds like a very wise woman!

  • Sita Aug 9 at 8:51 pm

    Sweet memories…time goes by quickly…wonderful to treasure..
    just popping by to say hi…school does not start in Canada until after Labor day in Sep…

  • Lelia Chealey Aug 12 at 8:47 pm

    Oh, I never thought of doing something like this. How sweet and what a treasure! Love the little window watcher!

  • Lelia Chealey Aug 12 at 8:50 pm

    Forgot to tell you, there's a huge lump in my throat & tears in my eyes. This is really beautiful Carol!
    Cowboy boots and shorts. I forgot about those days as my boy is 14 now!

  • Donna @ Thirsty? Aug 13 at 4:39 am

    That was beautiful! Thanks so much for sharing it! I had tears in my eyes. I gave my little boy a day off kindy today just so we could hang out together! He loved it, but so did I!

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